BIG AND BEAUTIFUL



Why these days, it feels like everybody has to be thin, have a great body,abs or just look like a model. This is the top subject thats has been spoken for few years: LOVE URSELF FOR WHO YOU ARE, LOVE YOUR BODY AS IT IS, but still it seems that no one has no courage to be big and also beautiful. Key to good life is to success in your goals, have a healthy life and be happy. But why cant you be happy without the so called "perfect fit body"? Why couldn't bigger woman or either man look sexy? 

My life has always been up and down going rollacoster just because of my weight. I look every morning in the mirror just discusted of these figures and feeling ashamed: why can't i be that girl in the magazine. Should a girl 13 years old think like that? I was healthy, but just a little chubby. I was also bullied. These days i cant see no people who hasen't been bullied. Either being too skinny or too fat. Why do we have to fit in one mold? As i got older, i was desperet, i lost my weight but not the right way.  It got all back, i lost my motivation.  People were not my friends only because i was fat. When i was 16 years old, i started to think that why can't i be big?

 Is it really matter if i have few extra kilos but im a nice outgoing person who loves life like everybody else does, should i hate myself only cause the way i look. When i saw the mirror I started too look myself differently. Im beautiful, no matter what they say, im big but im happy, so why change that. I started to have confidence, why couldn't i be the one for example for those people who hate fat people, that im not stuck in my misery because they say bad words. I started to live, and show them that im better than that, im beautiful. When u feel beautiful inside and out, everybody else sees you beautiful too. Actually people started to see my beauty, when i started to believe in myself.  It was my time to shine.

Now im turning 19 and i have gotten little bigger than i used to, its all bacause of lots of partying, alcohol, bad food and all that, but these days i have started a healthier life. Im still going to be this girl who is always chubby, but doesen't matter i keep going everyday just as MYSELF ;)