BIG AND BEAUTIFUL



Why these days, it feels like everybody has to be thin, have a great body,abs or just look like a model. This is the top subject thats has been spoken for few years: LOVE URSELF FOR WHO YOU ARE, LOVE YOUR BODY AS IT IS, but still it seems that no one has no courage to be big and also beautiful. Key to good life is to success in your goals, have a healthy life and be happy. But why cant you be happy without the so called "perfect fit body"? Why couldn't bigger woman or either man look sexy? 

My life has always been up and down going rollacoster just because of my weight. I look every morning in the mirror just discusted of these figures and feeling ashamed: why can't i be that girl in the magazine. Should a girl 13 years old think like that? I was healthy, but just a little chubby. I was also bullied. These days i cant see no people who hasen't been bullied. Either being too skinny or too fat. Why do we have to fit in one mold? As i got older, i was desperet, i lost my weight but not the right way.  It got all back, i lost my motivation.  People were not my friends only because i was fat. When i was 16 years old, i started to think that why can't i be big?

 Is it really matter if i have few extra kilos but im a nice outgoing person who loves life like everybody else does, should i hate myself only cause the way i look. When i saw the mirror I started too look myself differently. Im beautiful, no matter what they say, im big but im happy, so why change that. I started to have confidence, why couldn't i be the one for example for those people who hate fat people, that im not stuck in my misery because they say bad words. I started to live, and show them that im better than that, im beautiful. When u feel beautiful inside and out, everybody else sees you beautiful too. Actually people started to see my beauty, when i started to believe in myself.  It was my time to shine.

Now im turning 19 and i have gotten little bigger than i used to, its all bacause of lots of partying, alcohol, bad food and all that, but these days i have started a healthier life. Im still going to be this girl who is always chubby, but doesen't matter i keep going everyday just as MYSELF ;)

~My first blog~

First to know that YES I write in english, cause I think it sounds waaaay better, but I might write finish in some point, cause i reaaaally think that my english skills are NOT that good... I have never really wrote blog before so it might get little while for me to learn.

So.. If you read my blog, you will be hearing stuff about my thoughts,experienses,feelings and all that stuff that happens in my life! 

Do you know the feeling when you wake up and first thing you do is watch the clock and see that " oh gosh, my teacher will kill me if i'll be late" ? Yes, that lovely feeling I felt this morning! I had to choose if i get dressed up right away and run to the next buss coming OR go to hot shower and go late to school, but looking fresh. Well, I had dancelesson coming so i didn't want my dancepartner to die because of me so, I went to shower! Do you know the feeling when you are already late from school and next thing that comes up is that " oh gosh I have no clothes to wear, they are dirty or they just dooont fit in". Yeah, that is the second "oh gosh" feeling today and I've been only one hour awake...

Spending almost two hours to make myself ready to school isn't such a good idea, cause woops when I got ready the lesson just finished. Yay, what a feeling! I had no lessons anymore so I stayed home and ofcourse opened my computer.I was bored and there was nothing interestin in facebook. Then.... I found a lovely thing to spend my time... Blogging ;)

And HONEY if ur reading this, please dont laugh or i'll punch you! allrighty.. :-)